Pariah

The punishment for the mistake was cruel,

Just as the irony that my mind can be so powerful

Yet completely defenseless to my own mindless impulses

Island bows to no one

Especially not his own reflection

I don’t want to imagine how Daisy must feel

Her feelings for me were the only interruption

In the permafrost apathy that is her own prison

Her own living hell

Only the dead feel nothing

Life is a continuous symphony of emotion

Without emotion, there is nothing

Now she just feels nothing but pain

She can’t let go

If she lets go she’ll drown

She doesn’t want to drown

She still loves me

She has forgiven me

I cannot celebrate when her love brings nothing but pain

There is a glass wall between the two of us, we can see but not speak or touch.

How could I do this to her?

I was supposed to be her savior but all I did was pull her from the ice to burn in the fire.

How long do I have until she returns to the frost and is lost forever?

She was my everything, she is my everything.

If I lose her I lose everything, I already lost her, what do I do, what will happen to me if I do, what will happen if I don’t? I need her, I can’t have her.

She needs me, she can’t hear me.

All we can do is gaze into each other’s eyes and wish that I had listened to her.

None of this would have happened if I had done what she said.

Can we repair what I broke?

Island says there’s no way to repair things between us.

The sooner you get over her the better.

I lied to her, it’s all my fault.

Jame Sparks